Tuesday, April 24, 2007

I married the good samaritan

And there is so much I love about that! My DH is away helping to organize local police stations for the Iraqi people. When he first brought the idea to me, I have to admit, I was not real thrilled. You see, He volunteered to go. But I realized something I was doing. I was fine with praying for everyone else that this war has touched personally-I really didn't want to be one of them! So, I prayed and thought about the fact that I married a true good Samaritan and that that was exactly what I loved about him! I had been praying for God to reveal himself to my DH in a new and fresh way, I just didn't fathom that He was going to have to take him to Iraq to do it!!

Already, I could be a witness and testify to the wondrous blessings that God has bestowed on our marriage and family in the short time that he has been away!! Distance truly makes the heart grow fonder...and I find myself in a position of renewed respect for him.

When he left(almost immediately) I felt like God was calling me to do three very specific things. I will not go into huge detail about two of them , but there is one I will talk about and that has been most pressing on my mind. That is a renewed call to purity and modesty. In thought and in action. Yes, me who has "idolised" and worshiped fashion, stood before my closet weeping as I threw outfit after outfit to the ground in a sharp realization that they were not as modest as I thought.

"I saw this same outfit on so and so, why Lord can I not wear it? She wore it to church, why can't I? I just bought that! I haven't even worn that one!" were my selfish cries. I wept as I was made to see my extreme gluttony that took over in the dark, recessed places of my walk in closet. How blind I had been to the monster that I had slowly created in there!

Since that "cleansing" I have never felt more freedom and more beautiful then I do now! I am fully covered, not drawing attention to any parts that ought not to be accentuated, yet not frumpy and sloppy looking either! I asked God to give me clear direction-and I believe he did! Hosanna!! I have come into what I feel is such an amazing closeness with my God! Immeasurably more then I could have thought on my own!

Who knew!!

Not to mention that it gives me great honor to know that my shape is for one mans eyes alone. My hubby. Thank God that He gave him eyes for me! As I have just passed the 30 mark-it seems that things are not quite like they used to be!!

Humm...I was praying for my hubby to come to know Him in a new and fresh way and it seems as if God said" Oh my sweet daughter, but I have so much to do in you...."

So this is it?

Well, here I am in the cyber world that all my dearest friends have been raving about. How proud they will be to see that I put my big girl britches on and finally did it! Well, had I known that it was truley this easy-I would have done it along time ago!!! A whole world where I can ramble on and on with the crowded thoughts inside my mind! The realization of it all makes me rather giddy! Ok, ok, grant me a little time to get used to all this...